Feel horrendously tired. Have been putting so much effort into work that I have become the typical Capricorn that just doesn't know when to stop. Losing my appetite and feeling hyper during the day only to crash like flight Oceanic Airlines flight 815. The pair of trousers I bought a week ago now require a good hitching up ever few steps I walk and I am sure my fumbling with my trousers is very unsightly- but losing weight is also, and always will be a huge confidence boost for me. However negative some of this may see, it is, what is known as positive stress for I am in a strange and highly demented way, enjoying the work. Its very empowering doing a job you feel makes a difference. The problem is I am not very good at getting off the treadmill of "taskdom". Previously I have experienced burn out and I refuse to relive the mistakes of the past. I realised yesterday that I was frantically writing on the corner of my train ticket the order to do a number of tasks that would be completed in the most efficient way. Then realised that it was time to have a rest. Today I enjoyed inspiring the more artistic in my class as we engaged in some recreation of African arts using authentic patterns and colours. It was very therapeutic. I'm sure the children enjoyed it and possibly liked the fact that I participated in the task myself and willed away a few satisfying hours with some pastels and crayons. Tomorrow is the last day of half term and I shall be dressing up in a ghost costume and strangely, I am looking forward to be able to act completely like a child.
